I live....Now

I live a life of an innocent child,
I live a life of a girl's smile,
I live a life where I see pain,
I live a life in the devil's domain,
I live a life to hear the cries,
I live a life to silence my self.

I live a life where I see people give up love,
I live a life seeing misery to its most,
I live a life, to be fortunate enough,
I live a life of security and hope!

I lived in wonder of what pain might be,
I now live to see it sweep.

I lived in wonder of how love might feel,
I live a life so full of it!

I lived in dreams of land with golden sands;
I live my life here in space so closed,
I live where i can smell the hell stink.

I live in constant wonder of how to speak,
I now live with my speech so clean.
I lived in anticipation of hope,
I lived in fear of loss...
I lived in silence but now I speak!

luv mayb defined. it may feel completely different to every other person.....may mean the same to u n me, after all it is love.. a feeling that unites

How did i fall in love?
It could have been a passing phase i thought,
but you see, it turned out to be love!

I never thought how it could feel,
but you see, it seems so pure and sweet.
How you make me smile is but a mystery,
how my dreams fill up is but a wonder!!

I wouldn't have known if you never came,
that after darkness I could see light,
that after a drought may feelings were still alive.

I'd forgotten how the pelting rain felt when it touched me,
I'd forgotten the romance of twilight,
I couldn't remember the sounds of music that my heart once sung!

I never could dream or wonder who it would be,
but you see it turned out to be you!
I ain't so perfect to judge it all,
but I know for sure that you are the one I want!
Its just you who made a dream come true....
And all I can say is,
"I love you!"

I sit in silence, I sit here to reflect, to reflect my own limitations.
I sit in silence, just to recall the calls of brutal men who,
once or more attempt to shame our fame.
I sit in silence in this secluded corner to think of the women who,
subdue their wiil against a power.
I sit to reflect how the world could change if I take a step,
I sit in silence and drop a tear at the forgotten fears.
I sit in silence to understand the gravity of life, to cherish the moments of smiles.
I sit in silence to pray, to make the human values visible to naked eyes.

How I sit here, in sheer luxury of happiness and protection while there are millions under the sneering villains?
I ask myself how we peer glances at the people pain and how we have the stomach to turn a blind eye and walk away?

I sit in silence, I sit here not only to reflect my own limitations
but also the spread of my wings.

In wonder....i wonder

In wonder of who you are
Ican walk miles.
I see the darkness behind the twilight,
a few questions in my mind.

In sweet memories, I cherish their smiles.
In constant wonder, I believe his eyes.
I know not how I choose or what I do
but I always land up on the same flight.

In wonder of who you could be, I wandered into a maze.
I saw fine pines, I saw wicked eyes.
I saw the moonlight falling on thyme... I wonder if they would smile?

The church gates were flung open,
so were the closets on the sides
I wonder if I could shut them and
enter the peaceful slumber.

I wonder what the woods avail,
I wonder how they sail,
I dream of the galaxy,
I drift to poverty.... I wonder if it would all prevail?

When I wonderI enter into the slumber... and the noises fade.
I wonder.... Its just something I wonder.

I wanna know how deep it is,
the life below the sea......
How blue, how dark, how warm.
I wonder if I could be a part of it, what would have I been?
It seems to me that the colours shall fade
if once I'd visit the sea
For I know from all my heart,
I bring dark luck to all.

They swim and glide and slide
but I can only crawl,
For no one seems to see my pain,
I've to bare it all.
I've no voice, no sight, no aim
I'm lost among the soil.....

this is to my wonderful friend...

Being with you i always discovered something new. The questions i shot were always welcomed and the answers always guiding.
To have you around is always wonderful......but when you are not, your encouraging and positive words are always ringing in my ears..n they definitely push me to move forward.
Thank u dear.... These words are not enough to describe you but will surely tell you how much you mean to me! :)

m not what i thought i was..... but i will survive!

I always thought i was Confident.... honest...... peppy.... loyal.... jovial...... awesome, adventurous, gutsy.... jovial.... helpful, kind, hardworking.... imaginative..... mysterious, charming.... reliable.. flexible, warm..... n special.....
But i am, not a perfect girl.. m clumsy, i drop things around....forget to put the geyser off..... mess up situations..... land on rock bottoms..... expect a lot n don't sore up to their expectations...... ppl misunderstand me n i cant correct them..... i sometimes fight n then nothing goes right... i know d right way but i still turn back..... i have a broken heart...broken dreams... m lost, confused, beaten, unhappy..... yet i am sure i will survive.....
Yes, all of these at this age.... they may think m too small to have experienced all this...... why are they harsh with me? dont be harsh with me..... why dont they realise that they went through the same phase? why do they judge? why are they not compassionate? why cant i see the love i know is there? however i maybe, whatever i may do but im truthful n sensitive.... i will fight..... n conquer with love..
Yes, m sure i will survive...... will be happy n confident!